What is it that I lack you may ask? How about motivation. I seem to have used up my reserve. This is, in large part, specifically in relation to working out. I feel, at best, an ambivalence towards the whole gym thing. This does manage to get in the way of my goals. See I can't lose the weight without the gym. I can eat well all I like but that won't make a shred of difference if I don't stay active. I look at myself in the mirror daily and remind myself what the end goal here is. I remind myself that I want to be healthier. I remind myself that the gym is the price I have to pay. The pep talks, however, work less and less every time. SO I need to figure out how to bring back the momentum I had when I started. I'm thinking I need some kind of reward system. The trouble is coming up with a reward that isn't going to jeopardize my progress, because all the rewards I have thought up so far have been food based. If anyone has any ideas, please feel free to contribute.
Other than that, I am happy to report that my funk from last week seems to be over, for which I am overjoyed. Also, in spite of my funky, less than productive week I still managed to slim down by a pound or so. I had fully expected to have gained because I only worked out a couple of times last week. My challenge for today: go to the gym after overtime. I used overtime as an excuse yesterday, but no more! I cannot allow gaining my money to interfere with gaining my health.